A Curious Girl: Inevitable conflicts

I'm really tired.

Not even sure why.

Never mind. Feeling OK - Chris called from on holiday (!!), I went down to meet Abi. We wandered around the town, even spent some time in the cathedral (it rained!). We ate fudge, she had a milkshake and rolled herself a cigarette or two.

It's funny how things have changed between us. Partly it's because she and Lee are in luuuurve (aaah!) and she talks about him a lot. And... well, we're less awkward with each other than we were when we'd just become friends, but whilst we're both mad, left wing, libertarian, philosophical, non-conformist, like books, love Monty Python, our differences in belief can be rather obvious sometimes. She's still a lovely person and I love her lots, but she exasperates me sometimes! Although Lee (partly) got her to stop the SI and is trying to get her to stop smoking. Good for him. :-) Abi's also given up drinking. She'll be outdoing me next :-)

My parents have the address to this diary. They've had it since the early days. That's OK - I figured that if Mum found my diary and then didn't want to read it, she wouldn't be convinced that it was secret and therefore it's not interesting enough for her to read. Only occasionally Clive does read it, like the entry before last. I really only meant to tell it like it happened, and Clive is usually such a lovely person, trust me, otherwise I wouldn't have let him adopt me.

Anyway, I've been wondering whether a shifting of diaries might be in order. I'm not ashamed of what I write exactly, but maybe I should be a little more careful, and also my frustrations are really no fault of theirs, but they might attribute it to them, if you see what I mean. It's an inevitability that we're going to come into conflict about God, but I'd rather they didn't know about my problems with this, because it's not their fault. Sharing my problems is good, though. On a side note, I'd also like to add that the Internet isn't actually the greatest place to do it, sometimes it's like addressing your problems to no-one. So maybe I really ought to find someone who listens as well as sweet-indigo does, but can give me a bit of advice as well...

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