A Curious Girl: Crushes and Catholicism

OK, Duck (or should I say Duck) has been berating me for not posting since Friday. I have to apologise, leaving that depressing entry up for so long!

Anyways...

The car is very damaged but my parents don't have a scratch... phewee.

I was going to tell you about the guys at work... weeell... I had a feeling one of the guys in the kitchen had a crush on me. Or he could just be really nice. His name is Asil, which I worked out is 'Lisa' backwards... I shouldn't have done because it makes me laugh :)

He's always asking how I am and when I'm working next. How nice, I think. Then I saw him behave similarly to another girl - he's just nice, no crush.

Then on Friday I discovered that a guy in the kitchen did indeed have a crush on me. However not Asil. I don't know this guy's name, but he was being... creepy... asking to call me and saying he'd been looking for me on his shifts. Like I would fall into his arms immediately, or as Mum put it, fall on my back with my legs open. She's so eloquent with language :)

OK, I didn't dress flirtatiously, I didn't chat him up (I've barely spoken to him) and I certainly didn't dance with him. *sigh* What's a girl to do? So he has a crush on me and Asil doesn't.

Later on, I was off to the toilet and caught Asil on his break. I stopped to chat awhile. He said he was finishing at ten on Saturday (as was I) and would probably be going to the cinema. Did I want to come?

Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear.

Please tell me he was just being nice.

Sooo... on Sunday I went to Aylesford Priory with Faith and Light. Good day, very hot... I had a nice time. There was an excellent song we sang, I must remember to type it up here. The Priory is incredibly beautiful, although I confess I was surprised to see the Friars dressed like Friar Tuck in Robin Hood... I also saw one in sunglasses... cool.

The only thing that bothered me was the Catholicness of it. Please don't take that as an anti-Catholic comment - actually I think most of my uneasiness went when, during Communion, I mumbled to the priest, 'I'm, uh, not Catholic' and he said, 'Bless you, thank you for coming' in an affectionate and sincere way that was very welcoming.

I was just very unused to the way they do things. Every now and again the congregation would start reciting something and I wouldn't have a clue where they were getting it from. Because I'm from such a different background, I found the vestments, the ceremony, the Communion, the tradition... all of that a bit odd! Also Communion and the Virgin Mary did give me some theological worries, but I'll save those for another time, huh?

I was touched by their devotion to God. I think the thing that surprised me was when the priests kneeled (genuflected!) to the Communion. I actually liked that - it made me look at it in a way that I don't with the Communion at Church. They would say that it is Jesus manifest in the bread - I would say that the bread represents Jesus - but none the less, the genuflection was a surprising and appropriate image, respect to the person represented by the bread, knowledge of the 'breaking' that had to take place.

I really don't like the rehearsed script though. Hate it with a passion. Sometimes we do read confessions at church, but not ones we've memorised. Like the way that the Lord's Prayer becomes just a gibberish poem for reciting, I think that all the prepared creeds and prayers and litanies can lack passion after a while. There's no sponteneity. Forgive me if you're a Catholic and you find this useful - I'm in favour of anything that brings you closer to God - it's just that I don't find it useful at all. They put me in mind of cheesy chat-up lines guys supposedly memorise before talking to a girl they like. I can't have a relationship on an extended list of eloquent chat-up lines! At some point, you've got to put your own words in.

OK, I think I should conclude this entry with... if you're Catholic, please don't kill me! :) But that is what I think.

I had a good trip home. I love all of the guys at Faith and Light (you know, adults with learning handicaps? Sorry, I've explained this a trillion times I'm sure, but for new readers...). They're so genuine and they look on life with such freshness.

So I'm going to see Scooby Doo tomorrow! yay! Have a nice week people :)

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