A Curious Girl: What a yoyo I am... Enjoy reading my goals

Haven't been feeling too good. On Friday, I met all Chris's St. Justus friends... I had seen most of them before, but hadn't met them so to speak. Chris was a little preoccupied with flirting with Andy, but after a gentle prodding (I burst into tears, actually. Feeling a bit emotional, I guess) she introduced me to them, and they were a cool bunch. Saturday I went to the hospital, saw a cute guy there (makes a pleasant change :-) and in the evening went to see Darenth Drama Group doing 'Farndale Avenue Housing Estate Townswomen's Guild Dramatic Society production of A Christmas Carol' which was very funny. Sunday I had another excellent driving lesson, but unfortunately missed Church.

I've been feeling low. Helen McBride had a go at me as regards something I said on the pantomime trip, and told me I never helped her and seemed to reckon I expected her to pay for everything. I'd already told her that she didn't have to pay for me, but just a little misunderstanding over dinner (I didn't know whether she was paying or not) she seemed to interpret my confusion as offence towards having to pay for myself. I'd tried to make it quite plain that I just wasn't sure and that was why I brought money along with me. She complained about the fares, and I offered to pay for myself (you see, she never asked) and she said that it was a bit late but thank you for offering. Any why did she never ask me to help her with the drinks or dinner, if it offended her so that I didn't? Then one little phrase, which she reckoned I had held her back to say and 'sounded like an ultimatum'. I made a jokey remark about it being Sally's birthday and we should treat her (because I felt they were being a bit mean to her, considering it was her treat). She couldn't do this, as we had to be home quite soon. And as Mum pointed out, I might be more mature than Sally, but I'm not exactly adult and au fait with all social graces. Helen said she was just eager to go to bed but that didn't exactly come across as we went back for cherry brandy, chocolates and television. I was more ready for bed than she was - she pointed out how tired I looked in the Samuel Pepys. It just depressed me. Mum sympathised.

Like I said, I've been feeling low, a bit out of touch with God and not really knowing how to remedy it. Read some of Chicken Soup for the Soul and inspired I decided to write list of goals. I think I need about three lifetimes to fulfill them all, but I'll give it a go, I suppose. I didn't hold back if they seemed too hard, only if I didn't really want to do it.

Qualifications

Pass my A-levels with all As

Get my Duke of Edinburgh Gold Award

Get a degree... and a PhD, why not?

Learn to speak Esperanto

Learn to speak Japanese (because it's a nice language)

Learn sign language

Learn to play the guitar

Learn to play the clarinet

Learn to play the saxophone (these may have to wait awhile, but it's still something I'd like to do)

Improve my playing of the piano and overcome fear of performing

Learn to sail

Learn to ride a horse (do you know I can't even ride a bike? I don't particularly want to, either)

Become a doctor; the idea of healing people still attracts me - I shall have to talk to Frances though

Become a teacher - did that surprise you? I blame Nicola. I love children, and teaching's just been something at the back of my mind for ages. Perhaps it's being in a school so much. I like the idea a lot, I admit it.

Become a youth worker - variation on the teacher idea, and a hope that I can help out teenagers with the problems that I and people I know have

Become a Christian Speaker - not a minister, though

Become a good cook - let's face it, it's necessary

Publish a book or three

Write a play

Experience

Work in these countries; Sudan, Rwanda, Angola, South Africa, India, Bangladesh, Brazil, Peru, Chile, Argentina, Mexico, Northern Ireland, Hawaii, Russia, Australia, Holland, Poland, Sweden, Norway, Germany, Switzerland.

Go hiking in Kenya and Amazonia

Meet the Masai

See the Nile and the pyramids in Egypt

Get a boat (after learning to sail, preferably)

Paint

Read all the books published by Dickens, Austen, Hardy, Swift (never read any Swift, I must confess)

Read all books by Adrian Plass and Isaac Asimov

Read Maya Angelou's and Nelson Mandela's autobiographies

Meet Frank McCourt, Terry Pratchett, Beth Redman (who wrote Soul Sista, which is excellent), Bruce Olson (although he might be dead, I'm not sure, his book is quite an old one), Michael Palin, Mike Pilavachi (in person, same goes for BR)

Go to the Empire State Building

Fly in a concorde

Go up in a hot air balloon

Read poetry by peeps such as Blake, Eliot, Shelley, Byron, Tennyson, and Shakespeare

Listen to more impressionist music

Helping others

Dig wells for people with no water

Give food to people with none

Be a driver for 'love in a box'

Visit War Orphans

Help clear up after a disaster

Join Amnesty International

Be a general dog's body on a camp or residential project for Christians

Personal and Spiritual

Meet all my friends over the internet (and Fido) in person

Learn to love everyone

Be more outgoing

Share Jesus with others

Read entire Bible

Go to another Delirious concert

Go to Soul Survivor

Go to Jerusalem, just to see where Jesus lived and walked and taught

Talk to religious leaders of all world faiths and all denominations. Attends meetings if allowed.

Get married and have children

Learn to be content with what I cannot change, and determined to change what I can

Follow my goals

That cheered me up immensely. It's nice to have them written down - when the opportunities come, I'll now know I want to take them. I don't know how I'm going to have about five careers at once, but I'm sure I'll think of something. Oh, and there's one more I want to add

Be a missionary.

I think that's everything :-)

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