A Curious Girl: Amazing Grace

Emergency stops.

Argh.

I do not like being surprised. Consider this - we had a crude reaction time measurer - the idea was, you dropped a ruler veritcally through person's good hand and recorded the point at which they caught it.

I dropped the ruler.

Considering this, you can see why I was scared.

Fortunately, the panic paid off, and Phil reckoned it was the easiest lesson he'd ever taught me! Yay!

Did three hours of revision today. I am plainly ill. I even wrote down loads of revealing quotations about the Wife of Bath. Must be mad :-)

I also went to the Noise reunion at Capstone. The paintings the other team did are beeyootiful. We had a big dinner of completely snack food (don't do it, if you can, you either don't feel full at all or you feel too full) and then some of the guys started a game of rounders. The rest of us talked for a bit and I took a walk around the lake. Told them I felt like soppy poetry.

I have to do these things, I'm a poet. All right, a lapsed poet. Practising poets go to confessionals and say things like 'Father forgive me, I have sinned, I tried to rhyme "prove" with "love" ', and learn Wordsworth off by heart :-)

For oft when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude
And then my heart with pleasure fills
And dances with the daffodils

Blame Mrs, um, Blah (Name changed). She made us learn it off by heart. Personally, I was happy learning 'Poeta fit non nascitur' by Lewis Carroll, or 'If' by Rudyard Kipling. Or, 'The Naming of Cats' by T.S. Eliot.

The naming of cats is a difficult matter
It isn't just one of your holiday games
You may at first think I'm as mad as a hatter
When I tell you a cat must have three different names

When we did a poem in which a boy abuses a cat (to contrast with a story Mrs. Blah couldn't stand, as she insisted on telling us) there was a bit where the poet said the cat's eyes were 'mad as gold' and I felt quite miffed when she said that 'mad as a hatter' is a cliche. T.S. Eliot is more cat friendly.

Speaking of poems, I uncovered this song I wrote aaaages ago today and discovered that in actual fact I like it more now than I did when I wrote it. Although it's not the kind of thing I'd write now, it's oddly close to how I've been with God lately. More so than when I wrote it, which is weird.

I've Discovered Grace

Out from the darkness there comes light,
Bright'ning up my way,
We're still in the struggle but you're in the fight,
I know you're here to stay.
I've no money but I'm rich in my strife.
I'm a loser but I've won in my life.

When everyone else is eating their soggy picnic in the rain,
I'm high and dry and feasting whilst I drink my pink champagne.

Love is the gift I'd wanted so long,
Fulfilling my soul,
So many times I'd felt twisted and wrong,
At last now I feel whole.
I had a heart but couldn't use it.
Now I have love I'll never lose it.

Never knew it's so good to go your way
With you by my side,
For now the price I don't have to pay,
'Cause I've let you inside.
My heart is yours now we're together,
My love for you will last forever.

When everyone else is eating their soggy picnic in the rain,
I'm high and dry and feasting whilst I drink my pink champagne.

Hey, I've discovered grace, and what a feeling!
You've forgiven my sins, my wounds you're healing,
You've given me love and mended my heart
You've pulled me together when I'm falling apart.
Hey, I've discovered grace.
I've discovered grace, I've discovered you,
Now I know you've been with me all the way through,
I've discovered grace.

Like it? Chris made up some music for it when I showed it to her, although I should imagine she can't remember it by now.

Satan's been attacking me recently. I know that sounds melodramatic! But the funny thing is, when I realised that I was getting these odd, incongruent attacks of uncertainty, I realised it was him on the move. And I thought, 'Great! Satan thinks I'm worth attacking!' :-)

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