A Curious Girl: Part of his purpose

Great Grandma's funeral was better than I thought it would be. Afterwards, we looked through piles of old photos for reminiscy purposes, and I even saw one of my great great great grandmother! So it was all right really.

I've been feeling kinda weird about this placement job. Well, a bit fed up. The things that I'm bad at I'm really really bad at, and the things that I'm good at are so boring... And I'm complaining again. But to get to a point - I'm not a scientist. I get the feeling I should be embarrassed, but since I told everyone that I want to be a teacher, I'm not. And I still do want to work with children - even more now that I know science isn't for me. I know it's good and everything, I know that God calls people to be scientists... but the thing is, he hasn't called me to be a scientist. And I don't need to feel guilty that he hasn't.

But in light of this revelation, it did leave me to wonder whether I should stay here or leave. And I have been feeling somewhat guilty that I don't even like my job right now. So on Sunday, after I attended the first service and helped out in Sunday school for 10-14s (yay!), I got prayer about the whole job/degree/future thing. Some of the things the two ladies who prayed for me said was that I've doubted my abilities and my calling (v. true) and should go read Paul's writings on who we are in Christ. Also that I should ask God every day what he wants to teach me from that day, because he'll show me something every day. Also that God sees the bigger picture and this is all part of a higher purpose, not just one job. And also, from one who's training to be a teacher, that it's OK having a scientific background if you want to be a teacher. Yay!

So this morning, despite today hardly being the most exciting, I feel distinctly better about all this. Someone e-mailed the prayer mail group and asked for prayer about his lack of job situation... And it occurred to me, no situation is a bad one when you're prepared to trust God. He'll use it to teach us and guide us - "God makes all things work for the good of those who love him" Romans 8.28

In other news, I have a house for next year (final year of university) and three lovely biochemist housemates. It's five minutes away from campus. Woohoo!

In other other news, I find it kinda funny that I was really touched by the Simpsons on Friday. Sideshow Bob tries to kill Krusty. Then Krusty apologises on air for driving Bob to crime. Then Bob apologises for trying to kill him, and they forgive each other (after all, Bob's murder attempts just drove up Krusty's ratings). And some Network Executives get blown up. It still had a funny ending, but I felt strangely warm and fuzzy anyway :)

And in other other other news, I don't have the internet at home yet. NTL sent me the internet on a disc, and the disc made my computer's hamster wheel stop turning, so I was forced to delete the internet. It was the lastest version of the internet, as well! But at least I have a new coaster.

Oh, and another thing I learned today was that no one but me thinks my Dorothy Gail-like hairstyle right now is cool.

Random word for today: mendacity

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