A Curious Girl: Homesickness isn't fatal, I hope

Yes, I really am in the computer room.

I'm homesick. I realise this when...

1) I don't want to get up for fear of having to introduce myself to more people

2) I actually miss working boring hours for rubbish pay. I miss work.

3) I'm in my room, hear voices, think it's people downstairs and then realise they're on my corridor, and I'm not at home

4) I'm in a street that looks so much like my hometown that I really do think I'm there

5) I wish my parents would phone

6) I'd swap the sophisticated CU session for one of our more argumentative ones we had at school in a second

7) I'd rather spend the day bored but with people I know than with people I don't really know

8) I start fantasising about having a girly sleepover, and realise all the girls I'd invite are at least a hundred miles away (and one is in France)

9) I'm dying to go home for a weekend

10) And I start wishing I was back at school.

*sigh* plus I'm ill. Probably the rubbish diet and the lack of sleep. Grandma called this morning at five to ten and actually told me to go back to bed (although I was lying in bed when I was talking to her). I'm not too ill - just a cough and general grogginess, but paired with homesickness I confess each morning I don't feel much like getting up. At all. In fact, I actively don't want to, and that hasn't happened in a long time.

I met Chris (Keith's housemate) on the way to buy bread and milk (and eggs - I was going to have bacon and eggs!) and he cooked me lunch, which was nice. I ended up hanging around there talking to him and Fiona practically all day, then we went to a pub quiz. Didn't see much of Keith, I assume he was out with Sian (they're 'just friends'. Ooh, did you see those low-flying pigs? :) ).

Sorry to sound so moodily depressed, I confess I'm partly here just for sympathy. Mental hugs are much appreciated.

I miss msn messenger too :) that was the main way I spoke with Ian, Lucy and Lois - hopefully I'll actually meet Lois soon, which will be nice :)

Well, I'm not giving up yet. Just in a bit of a rough mood, frankly fed up and wish I could settle in and find my best pals already. Friendships don't seem like proper friendships yet, you know how after a while you settle into your friendship groups and you feel comfortable there? I don't quite feel comfortable with anyone yet, but I'll keep trying. Keep praying. I love the Message Bible, I want to post some verses in here at some point. Jesus said the most awesome things.

Anyway, I'm toddling off to bed now. Hopefully I'll get to my 9:15 lecture tomorrow but to be honest I'm tempted to miss it and copy up someone's notes. I hate 9:15s, which is odd because I used to get up at 6:30 every morning (theoretically ;) ). Oh well.

Random word for today: Familiarisation

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