A Curious Girl: Honest to God...

Hi dudes. I updated just a few hours ago, and that entry is probably a lot more interesting that this one is going to be. Mum, thank you :)
Today has been boring. I kept myself occupied whilst the programme was loading by re-doing the Point Horror Generator. It occurred to me that if I wanted, I could probably write Point Horrors. I'm not going to. I think I'd be forced to beat myself to death with my own pencil should I even attempt such a thing...
It's my 21st birthday soon. I was reading some old diary entries the other day and was stunned to note that this diary is over four years old. Funny, isn't it?
Sigh. I've been feeling a bit fed up recently - Moody Self attacks as usual. It's just that despite our adventures in the Peak District I still have trouble relating to my colleagues. It's strange - last night I went out to play pool (badly, on my part) with Jayne and Nick who I know from the work bus, and had a really nice time. But with most of the people in my office I feel like I'm on an entirely different wavelength. At church I have a slightly different problem - I'm a heretic :). I believe in evolution, I don't believe in the inerrancy of the Bible (I do believe it's reliable, however, just felt I should point that out), and I don't think that The Purpose Driven Life is the best book ever written... And I'm not sure how they'd react to my sporadic doubts, and how I idly wonder sometimes if in fact I might just be putting my faith in nonsense (I doubt it, but we all have our little idiosyncracies...) I joined them because it's nice to go to a church that actually believes God does things :) I'm always a trifle disturbed to go into churches that seem to believe that God just leaves us to it...
But I have such trouble being honest about this kind of thing. I hate long debates, I hate causing division, but I wonder if I'll only be aiding an unspoken division if I don't say anything (I did confess that I liked Harry Potter the other day... Sandra, who's also in my housegroup, said that she had to know about Harry Potter... she's a teacher!).
And I'm having another one of my periods of doubt about hell and heaven and all that. Sigh.
I do find that it helps if I start by being honest to God about these things :) Prayer is needed, as always.
In other news, I've become a Don McLean fan. Not only are his own songs wonderful, but he did a gorgeous cover of "Everyday", which is a Buddy Holly track. *smile*

Random word for today: idiosyncracy

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