A Curious Girl: I want to know...

Good grief, can it really be March already? Freaky. Uni is so stressing me out. I can't wait until term's over, but I have lots of work to do before then.

I went to see Christina last week. It was great. Her friends care about each other so much, and they're always talking about God. Her church is great too, the service I went to was on serving the poor - the speaker said something which really put some of the 'weirder' side of anointing into perspective. He spoke about how anointing (eg. the Toronto blessing) isn't just for the experience at the time or for the weirdness or anything but how it's God preparing people for his work - he spoke about how a missionary couple, burnt out after working for years in Africa, received the Toronto blessing then planted hundreds of new churches.

It was great how Chris's church act as a family. I realised some of the things about church that I've been missing, like everyone being able to participate, and people being able to get prayer.

I miss being certain about things. I feel like I'm wandering through life with a Socratic uncertainty, don't-know-and-will-never-know, and it drives me mad. I want to know. I wish I understood all about Heaven and Hell and what on earth goes through God's mind. It distresses me, thinking about that traditional Christian view of Heaven and Hell, that this life seems to mean so little. Born, get saved, go to Heaven/born, don't get saved, go to Hell... there must surely be more to Jesus's message - in fact, I'm sure there is, but I'm not sure how to articulate it. I'll think I'll be reading my Bible and looking for answers, but as ever, your opinions are valued. C'mon, give me something to wrangle at, stick it in the guestbook.

On one condition though. Please don't put any views in that you haven't thought about. It's kinda crazy how the people who do my christianity survey who say 'this survey made me think' always seem to write the most formulaic answers...

Thanks Kati for your note - much appreciated! Sarah Joy - they do exist but they aren't in the public domain ;)

Random word for today: panegyrics

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