A Curious Girl: Hospital and driving

The little girl awakes from her nightmare, as her father wraps his arms around her and whispers, "I'm here, I'm here." She says nothing. The nightmare is still in her mind, but it is rapidly vanishing into peace.

Gavan is here. This is quite weird, because Nicola isn't. I said he was seeing me behind Nicky's back, and he said he'd already tried teasing her with that one, and she'd said I only have eyes for one person. Or I have eyes for only one person. Or, I have eyes for one person only.

Who cares. I went to the hospital and did my usual. It was quite nice today; Irene, Kandi and I chatted whilst we did the dinner, mainly teasing each other, which was quite funny. I feel comfortable with people when they feel they can tease me (but not too much, that's the thing. They shouldn't overdo it.) Kandi was changing a bag in a bin, so Irene and I started without her, so when she came up, I said, "So I see you finally decided to join us!" and later on I took little longer than usual taking a tray to someone, so Irene says, "Oh go on!" and Kandi affectionatly told me not to bother coming back :-) Ah, all good friends together. I like them, they're good fun, although after dinner I usually go do something else whilst they clean and stuff, so it's just little old volunteer me on my own. Today I met a nice nurse who actually saw me doing the drinks and without saying a word, started to help! I was quite impressed. Most of the nurses just want me to help them. And none of them seem to be able to remember my name, apart from Ashley I think, who usually does. Although Ashley, I think, isn't quite a nurse, but something else, or at least, she doesn't wear white like the ones who are allowed to sign my meal voucher. But at least she doesn't ignore me. Lots of them do. Sapiah always says thank you but she forgets who I am. Philip always says hello and makes the occasional suggestion, but he has to keep checking my badge too. Oddly enough, Ashley, who does remember my name, also teases me the most. When I first knew her I thought she was a bit nasty but she'd just got used to me much more quickly than I'd gotten used to her. She might say things that are a bit out of line, but I know that by the way she treats me that she means well. So she's OK, really, plus she always says Hi and helps me out if I need direction. And lends me a pen.

Kept thinking about Hoffling et al's study of obedience in nurses. I wonder which of the staff on my ward would have obeyed?

Had a driving lesson. Stalled it twice, and so my nervousness about stalling again forced me to use the clutch properly. I'm gradually begin to understand everything. Phil is a really good teacher. He says my steering got much better in today's lesson, so we'll do mirrors next lesson instead of working on steering. This may be because I kept forgetting to do the mirror-signal part of mirror-signal-manoeuvre (is that really how you spell that word? It's impossible. No wonder the Americans changed it)(It is as well, I just checked my Highway Code) He says I'm getting much better at manoeuvring though. And we went through traffic today, and he said I handled it very well. But he's telling me I'm really not confident on moving out, about which I agree with him. I suppose that comes with practice. In the lesson after the next I'll have his wife Carolyn because he'll be away. If she's as good as he is, I'll be happy.

Can't think of anything else to add. I can't have been thinking all that deeply recently :-)

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