A Curious Girl: All we really need to have is no doubt

OK, so I really ought to update you on stuff that's been happening. Nicky loves cow poo (snigger, that's technically a private joke between her and Jonathan).

Still feeling confused. Never mind.

Played my guitar a bit this morning. I could remember practically all of August 30th!! I also made up a tune to that little poem I put at the end of yesterday's entry.

"Ask, and God will give it to you. Search and you will find. Knock, and the door will open for you." Matthew 7:7

I've been seaching a lot... this is a comfort. But God's also saying, "Don't search for kicks, don't try to find me just because I'm a drug that make you feel better. Do it because you love me."

I'm still in 'random thoughts' mode by the looks of things.

Yesterday in PSE we were doing application forms for mock interviews, for the event Ian B. used to call "Find that course, waste that time" :-) I asked him if the internet was an appropriate leisure pursuit, and he read my rough copy. "What website do you run then?"

"My online diary," says I.

"Oh, a weirdo!" he says, smiling. That's a compliment coming from him :-)

Then we went to the library to hear Mrs Tester talk about the Stratford trip. Mum said I could go!!

I got my school report to take home at last. Parents' evening is on Tuesday, oh joy of joys. Actually, the 'weirdo' part of me is rather looking forward to it. Don't ask me why... maybe it's because the report was good so I'll probably hear compliments. Maybe it's just seeing whether my teachers' behaviour changes in front of parents. Ian B. said, in the form tutor's comment, that I am an ideal A-level student as I take my studies seriously whilst appreciating the less serious side of life. I took this to mean that I get good marks and I laugh at his jokes!!! If you want to see whether his comment is true or not you can read former entries and make your own mind up. Mum's response to it was, "You're sure this is your report?" Yeah, to be honest I think I am just lucky that I come off well during exams. Not that I can't work hard, it's just I so often don't!!! But I am thinking of taking English next year and well as my othr three. The reasoning behind this is that it's a quite easy subject for me and we'll be doing stuff I think I'll like. I could be wrong. But Arcadia has renewed my love for English, and now I can understand him, Chaucer is also fairly hilarious. And during free periods I usually don't do enough work anyway. Might as well fill that time up with something constructive.

Careers are hassling me... the parents are confusing me. Clive keeps saying it's not worth the hassle being a teacher, Mum tells me to keep my options open and then makes me feel guilty because I don't know what I'm doing! I want to be a teacher. But for some reason my mind seems to be playing tricks on me at the moment, and I can't be sure what I want!

I'm going to quote from No Doubt by Petra, even though it isn't 'winter in the seasons of my soul', more like a hot summer day where all you want to do is drink iced drinks and lie around looking like a wet towel.

No doubt it'll be all right
With God, it'll all work together for good
No doubt in the end it will be understood
No doubt it'll all work out
With faith he can move any mountain for us
No doubt in the power of Jesus
And after all is done we find out
All we really need to have is no doubt.

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