A Curious Girl: The mystical other half

In case you didn't guess, yesterday I had PMS :) (yes, it's true, I found out this morning) I'm wondering if I should delete that entry. I don't think it read that badly, but it still makes me feel like an idiot. When I was writing it I felt bitter and not for amazingly good reasons, either. Well, to sum up what I was saying yesterday in a slightly more sane frame of mind, and sounding slightly less like a bitter old maid, I don't need a boyfriend, and people suggesting that I should get one irritate me. However deep down I do harbour a little romantic desire to settle down with a bloke for the rest of my life, and added to that, I would like a boyfriend. I mean, he'd be good company :) Just because I don't need one doesn't mean that I'm a singleton, yippie, planning on staying this way until I die. Getting married and having kids is something I'd like to do, but it's not the chief goal of my life. I don't need my 'other half'.

Thank you Lucy for your guestbook entry :) It was really nice, so true :D

But that area of my life is really confused at the moment. I'd like to zap attraction from my world, or maybe lock it up with a password only Mr. Right knows. It's not going to happen like that. I know people believe that God has someone destined for everyone, but that's too simple. For one thing, if they become a monk/nun, you're in a bit of a mess if you want children. For another, if you marry someone just on impulse or for their money, or even someone you're not really suited to, there isn't going to be some mystical person you were meant to marry still wandering around looking for you.

I once heard someone say that you and your future partner will fit together like a pendant on friendship necklaces - you know, the ones that say 'best friend' or whatever, and split in half so they're attached to two separate necklaces. I don't think I quite agree with that, because it would suggest that every bad marriage, every couple that has ever split up, was with the wrong person, and I don't think God has planning as bad as that. Of course, God knows who we're going to marry, and I believe he has a plan for each marriage, even those started badly. But there's no other half out there, waiting to be discovered.

Sorry if my lack of romanticness has just spoiled anyone's day :) I'm sure there's someone suited for everyone out there, but I don't think that the world will fall apart if people end up with someone who's not quite the perfect fit I guess people just have to work on it.

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