A Curious Girl: Quenching the silence

Where do I start? (skip unfinished novel banter)

The Unfinished Novel plot is going well... I think, following in Alice's footsteps in creating her own ice-skating diary, I'll probably start up a diary for the UN, although it'll have to be private. I started writing a bit of diary for it when I was doing in last year, when I should have been revising (!!! I got mostly As though, which probably explains why now I find myself overwhelmed at the work I have to do...). I just wrote down lots of thoughts I had whilst writing. Deep thoughts, such as why are the bad guys so often Arabian/black in fantasy novels (my good guys are quite dark, probably Arabian would be the best way of describing their complexion). Weird. Anyway, I'll write the rest of my thoughts somewhere else, as you probably aren't interested anyway!!!

Driving lesson at 8 am this morning, yawn. Did reverse parking. Not bad. Phil said I'd made a bit of a slow start to driving but I'm doing well now. I was a bit, well, depressed by this, although he said that sometimes starting slow can be a good thing. But did I really expect anything else? I'd never driven, I had trouble with a tiny thing that does 5 miles an hour at Legoland and let's face it, I'm not usually good at that kind of coordination! What the heck, at least I'm getting good now. Oh, and another phrase to add to my driving/following God comparisons, "act on what you're hearing." Funny, things I try out and have a 'slow start' to always end up as metaphors for following God. Probably because they're always physical things and 'academic' is practically my middle name. (Helen Academic Louise, hmmm) Ice-skating was one of these, but I know what Alice means when she talks how good it is. There's just something gorgeously exhilarating about ice-skating. Pity I'm still not very good at it. (Serious ankle-ache is always a factor.)

Karate wasn't one of those. I did well at that - at first. And then I kind of fizzled out, partly due to the fact that I didn't have much enthusiasm for the kind of aggression I felt myself putting into my practice. Is there a non-martial martial art? 'Cause karate was the only sport I really enjoyed, and could keep up. Maybe just stretching and exercising would do it... I don't want to be a killing machine.

Anyways, back to today. We met at Ordnance Street for the Noise (yay!). Good worship (Chris did it - great songs, darrrling!) and Kirsty did an excellent talk (what do you call 'em? Sermons???) about making the Noise matter and how we should put God first - not our own glory.

For some reason I was feeling stressy and trapped. Maybe I had Miserable Christian Syndrome, in which the Christian is convinced that he/she has to be miserable in order to iradicate sin. But doing something as simple as picking up litter (in a gloriously sunny park, may I add :-)) was such a gift, I remembered the promises of joy, and remembered to that God gives to us how we give to others. And I realised that I don't have to fear giving up all I have, because he will give me so much more!! I still can't quite believe this truth, but I can see the light, albeit at the end of the tunnel.

As for universities, Sussex does an Arts/Science programme in which science students can broaden their horizons by studying an arts project of their choice! EXCELLENT!! Their offers are for BCC, which is rather depressing (I'm too proud... it's far too low!! :-) but I like the sound of the course/

I also have a great idea for a year out... I'll tell you when I have the info.

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