A Curious Girl: Dark thoughts

Why is the time always 14:38 on the time slot when I add an entry?

OK, here's the news. Back to school yesterday, didn't hand in Chemistry. Meant to today, but I didn't get it finished. I really am a mess - but I have resolved to spend more time on work. One of these resolutions involves doing it before this sort of stuff, so I'm not doing well so far. :-)

It's Halloween (blood-curdling scream), so like the typical miserly attitude of the British Isles, I am ignoring Trick-or-Treaters.

The bell is being incessantly rung, but I'm not going to give them anything.

David passed his driving test (good) so he'll be picking up his little sister on Mondays and Tuesdays instead of CU (bad). I don't know what to do. My last path has been blocked.

I think I ought to look for someone else. Besides, I hardly have time for a boyfriend, what with not doing much work now anyway, and the hospital, and my friends, and church, and GB on Friday nights. Still, *sob*!

I think I ought to just accept it. A guy who has to babysit his little sister and be head boy and work to go to Oxbridge might not really be a good match anyway.

But I don't *know!*

Abi today said that she didn't think that love exists. It reminds me of when Sara said she'd only ever loved one person, and that person is dead.

I think that might have been her bulimic friend.

As for Sara, she's lost a serious amount of weight, and I'm worried about her. That and her eating habits. But what can I do? What can anyone do? She's taking St. John's Wort at the moment for depression, Abi's going to go see a shrink (might be a good idea) about her SI and other things, probably, and Chelle is planning to blow up Mr. M's (physics teacher) car with the love of her life, Dave (not taking her seriously). And what the hell am I supposed to do? I'm helpless.

I can pray of course. But that's never enough.

Anyway, I'm going to work. I had planned to say more, but I'm feeling guilty.

What's more, I'd planned to dedicate this diary entry to David, and it's more about Sara and Abi and Chelle.

Love,

Helen

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