A Curious Girl: "You make me smile"

OK, so I missed breakfast to catch the bus, and by the time I was in Andrew A's lesson my stomach was practically screaming... And I missed Susann in English Lit. But let's face it. Moan all I like, but it has been a truly great day.

I have 'Chicken Soup for the Soul' to thank for this, but also, much more so, I have God to thank. His note today read, "Dear Helen, I'm crazy about you, Love from God xxx." I also read this nice bit in Ecclesiastes, basically saying that working hard and being miserable is useless. Enjoy life.

Chris has 'fessed (in her own words, she may mean professed or confessed, either one works) to Andy and we are waiting the reply!! Unless I told you, I'm afraid I probably won't explain why until I'm really bored, because it takes a bit of explanation. The thing is, we made a pact that she would tell Andy 'her true feelings' when I told David 'my true feelings'. I decided to get him a Valentine's Card. He knows I like him, so I'm not doing it anonymously, and if I have the guts I'll give it to him myself. I bought it today. It says,

You make me smile

And inside there is a huge smile spanning the entire width of the card, and it says at one end "From here" and at the other "To here". It is cute. Another cool one I saw was "Often the nicest thing about valentines... Is the person who gets them - like this one!" But that was a bit slushy.

After break, there was chemistry with John E. and I walked in late, smiling (I always smile at him, it's like filling in a vacuum) and apologising. We did a weird experiment with iodine and potassium hydroxide. We had to wear goggles (not glasses) and gloves. I got a B in my homework, which was pretty good considering, and I think I understand it now. He's not such a bad teacher after all.

Elaine and I were the last to leave; we were having a conversation about something but I now can't remember what. We made our way out, and I realised that I was now not in a position to embarrass myself completely in front of the entire class (I'm weak like that, I'm afraid) and said, "Thanks for teaching us on Tuesday by the way."

I watched his face. He actually managed a smile. He said, "I didn't do it for thanks..." but it was obvious he was pleased. We left, and as soon as we were out of the science block, I pointed the smile out to Elaine. It was like alchemy. I could hardly believe it. And all for a thank you.

So he is human, after all. Anyway, I've been pleased all today. I've achieved something I would have once called impossible, and certainly very improbable. Amazing. Today I feel powerful.

I believe I have made that taxi driver's day. Suppose he has 20 fares. He's going to be nice to those 20 fares because someone was nice to him. Those fares will in turn be kinder to their employees or shopkeepers or waiters of even their own families. Eventually, the goodwill could spread to at least 1000 people. Now that isn't bad, is it?-Art Buchwald

I explained this concept to Elaine. She teased me a bit, saying stuff like, "He's going to give you an A now" and "Now he'll think he's got an admirer". I appreciate the work he does, more now, funnily enough. And yes, it would be nice to get an A, even if it was only because I won him over! I doubt he would do it just for that, though. Still, just for a moment maybe I made him happy. Which is a pretty great feat for a stoodent like me, even if I do say so myself. All that with a few words? I could climb a mountain.

My yeast experiment worked at last, although not very well, so I'll going to warm it up a bit. It has been a nice, friendly day, talking to all my school friends and Amy, who was at home ill. I treated her to the now completed "101 uses for a student planner". She was, of course, completely fascinated with this great work of literature.

Walked home from Chatham, although stopped to talk to a homeless guy with a cute dog. I didn't ask how he could keep her, because that would be rude. But the dog was gorgeous, and weirdly enough her birthday was the same as my cat's official one. How strange. Got to cards for Valentine's day. One was for David, the other for an appointment at Niall o'Kane's, the optometrist. I passed the shop and finally decided it would be a good idea to get an appointment or else I'd forget for months. Got home eventually. Still feeling a bit sensitive to life in general, but hopefully I'll get it sorted out. But as you can see from this entry, whatever my problem is, I seem to be recovering. I've been feeling a bit self-conscious, but the good thing about this is that I have slightly better judgement of myself, so I'm not making such ridiculous excuses to myself. This can be bad too.

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