A Curious Girl: The Suffering Church

*sigh* What can we do about it??

Whilst chatting to Chris and reading her diary today, some things occurred to me.

After the last two stressy entries I was frustrated and wanted to talk about God in here. For two reasons - firstly because he hadn't had much space in here for all my moanings and I wanted to make up for that. Secondly because it looked so much like my faith wasn't doing much and I wanted to prove to everyone that it was OK. I realised that I was basing my self-worth on what other people think of me... and that I'd lost sight of what I'd learned at Detling, that I am a child of God, special no matter what, even in my foul moods!! Felt the sudden urge to do some worshipping. Because whilst I wanted to convince others that my faith is not faltering, it's more important that I convince God first :-) Posted a letter to Helen and Sally, saw that the family were half-watching Songs of Praise, and then went up stairs to worship God. Sorry, I just love the irony in that... I'm not a great fan of Songs of Praise, even though I caught a man talking about forgiving the man convicted for the Lockerbie bombing... his wife had died, I think. That's grace. But anyway, I praised God and felt much better. And then went to Church.

Baroness Cox from Christian Solidarity Worldwide was speaking. Their work is amazing, but the stories she told about the suffering Church... I don't know what to do, except pray. But I really want to do something... aid, support, money, something. I don't know, maybe it's just me being me, wanting to leap up and do something about everything that comes along... and never knowing how. But... grrr... I want to be one of 'God's Smugglers' (ever read the book by Brother Andrew?? Brilliant).

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