A Curious Girl: Nothing in this world can see me through

Just read my last entry again - 'Keith (I think) texted me today' means, I know it was Keith just I wasn't sure whether he had in fact texted me that day :)

Invasion was crazy this lunchtime. Still a bit tired, actually, and I'm not good at losing my temper. Which means I'm even-tempered even when I shouldn't be... ook. Once lost my temper with someone during English once when Diggers wasn't in, actually quite proud of myself for that *grin*. I didn't scream and shout but I was suitably annoyed to get my opinion out, and my angry tones attracted the attention of the whole class, it was actually kinda cool :)

My monitor's gone at the moment, am writing this at school, but cannot check e-mail so if you've e-mailed me it may take a little while - Clive won't let me use his computer. I can't go on msn either, grr. But at least I have my camera to play with... yay :D I can do pictures sepia style, it's really weird. It has a timer too, so I can take pictures of myself *g*. I can do pictures in black and white, so that's gothic horror taken care of, and there's probably a few other features I've overlooked, so I'm having some photography fun! Faith and Light tonight. And Christian Union.

I ought to trust God more - 'walk by faith' etc. I'm OK when there's nothing much else I can do, but I'm not terribly willing to take a 'risk' on God... my trouble is when I'm working on something I don't want to rely on anyone but myself to get it done. Partly out of pride and partly because I often feel disappointed or unconnected with the group effort - work's OK because I clean tables *g* - but in projects I'm either disappointed or a disappointment, heh. But this is God - I'm not doing 'my work', I'm meant to be obey him and being a bit of his work. I can't control what happens, but he can. Yet I'm still - deep down - afraid of being disappointed. God is so faithful though - he's blessed me so much. So I'm going to have to learn to trust. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

There are so many verses about this, I couldn't quote them all. Maybe (argh, no Bible handy... Proverbs, near the end) 'Trust in the Lord and not on your own understanding.'

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