A Curious Girl: A follower reflects on her stumbling

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A follower reflects on her stumbling
2001-05-27 - 13:29

It's been a little while.

On Friday, I carried a towel for Douglas Adams.

As you can see, I've also spent rather a lot of time beautifying my diary. I'm kinda proud of it now, although I'm feeling a bit guilty over just how much time I spent making a web page aesthetically pleasing, even if I did learn how to do image maps along the way. Because, as the sign in our study room says, 'Make wise use of every moment of time'. I miss speaking to God just as I miss speaking to my other friends - maybe more so, because he's not just part of my life, he's the meaning of my life, and yet I blow him off like he doesn't matter very much at all. I ignore him. I put him second place to things. I leave him behind like I'd never do to a friend, and this really does make me feel guilty. Because how can I follow God's plan if I won't even talk to him??? But when I pray, I realise that he is the greatest person I could ever know, and he loves me more than I could imagine. You'd think I'd try harder with a description like that. But I'm rather contrary, or I get scared and forget that what God's giving me is far more than what I'm leaving behind. I cling on, still, to what's past.

It's time to stop being afraid. It's so lovely to know that God still cares about me, and so I'm going to try and trust a little more.

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