A Curious Girl: For the love of the thing

Must be quick, as Clive will be logging off. Had an e-mail from a man in Germany talking about Jesus etc. It wasn't fanatical; in fact it was quite humble, so I gave him a civil reply asking him where he got my e-mail address and why he chose me. And I gave him the URL to the various pages in this diary in which I talk about Jesus.

I did attempt to write an entry earlier, but I was watching At home with the Braithwaites as well, and my computer eventually crashed as I was using the TV card. Probably a good thing, as you would have got my commentary on Megan chatting up Virginia. I like that programme, it always does what I tell it to. I say, "Tell her you love her!" and David says, "I love you Alison", I say "Kiss" and they kiss, and I say "Get out Virginia" (away from Megan) and she does!!! I think we like fictional things because they're more ordered and predictable. Much safer.

I went swimming with Chris, and then we watched A dream for an insomniac. It was a strange, arty, search for meaning type film. I quite liked it, it was cleverly done, although the plot was a bit stupid. Maybe that's it - the plot was a bit too optimistic, but I don't know, the people seemed quite real. Although a bit exaggerated. Or maybe just a bit too predictable. Their psychology was too obvious.

Yesterday I had a couple of self-revelations (it's really been my week for them - I had some the day before too). Firstly, I am not a shy extrovert. I am a loud introvert. Actually, Chris said she was a shy extrovert today, and I was glad I changed (because I coined the term shy extrovert, although the imitation is extremely flattering). However, shy extrovert sounds much more attractive. I discovered one more thing, going through my stories and writing my feelings about them - this is something I do. I talk of publishing occasionally, but strange as it may seem, I don't really want to. I don't write to get published - that is just an excuse. I write because I love writing. I write, because when I do I can give my life a happy ending, I can restore order to the world and I can discover new things that I knew but never realised. I can abandon living in colour for a while with black on white. I can explore things without leaving the room.

Oh and one thing - I would like to apply for a job. The title would be "Net surfer, amateur writer, loud introvert and friend" I am adept at the first three, and willing to improve on the fourth.

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